tear

why do I keep eating.. I was doing so good today. Didn't eat all day..

then after school I had one 360 calorie meal...

it was healthy too , just a veggie sandwich with orange juicee ..

I think I need to go vegan rather then just being a vegetarian that would save me from really fatty foods.

but alas, I cannot I need the protein I can get so i can still play my lovely sports :(

then coming home after hour and half of runningggg.

i came home and ate, and I told myself I would just have an

egg, I didn't I had a large plate of pasta and then icecream ..

I have such a bad sweet tooth..

i really need more fruits and veggies in my house

i crave them so much, and we never have them... :(

pretty much all the excersise was a waste..

and I know I shouldnt be eating what I do .

I actually sit there and stare at it, but i just keep

eating it, I actually have no control at all .

i also hate that when I wake up in the morning..

Im 145 and when i keep eating all day, i end up at 150..

i HATE 150 ITS SO UGLY..

i need to get through this..

i wish i had someone to help me..

i never feel like just playing sports is enough

but with school work and the gym i have no time to excersise..

i end tonight at 150